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About two years ago, I came across this verse. It definitely was not the first time I had read, however it spoke differently to me in that particular season of my life.

The whole passage is amazing in itself. It meet me exactly where I was, bringing comfort and confidence in my spiritual life.

"Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father. But even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not, therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows."- Matthew 10:29-31



This verse is hard for me to truly grasp and understand. I believe it because it is the word of God, however my flesh and mind tell me that there is no way my God cares enough to know how many hairs i have on my head. Or that my life and my spirit matter to him. The enemy is constantly plaguing my mind with what-if's and how-cans. 

This verse opened my eyes at a time when everything seemed to be crumbling right under my feet. When poor decisions and the lack of making decisions seems to have poisoned my heart, mind, body, and soul. It was at this time that i read this passage and my hairs stood up. My God whispered in my ear...my God spoke through His soft yet firm voice. He reminded me that I was in the Will of my Father and though i sin and enemy constantly throws hurdles along my path, NOTHING can pluck me from His Will. I am a child of God. He knows every little detail about me. He know my aches and pains, he know my likes and dislikes, He knows my needs and my wants. He even know how many hairs are on my head. He is consumed with every detail about me because I am His child. 

It was that reassurance that gave me the courage to accept the road ahead and begin running the race again with full confidence. Confidence that whatever was ahead, whatever happened to me in my life, was all in the plan of God. Because he values my life and step and my soul and my heart and my.......... The list goes on and on.

Fast forward now. Last night...I am sick and in pain and frustrated. It frustrates me when I do not have control over my body and it does it's own thing. It stresses me out when i realize that my body has the ability to cause me so much pain and discomfort that i feel like I must be close to the light at the end of the tunnel. Sickness and Bethany Poole do not go hand in hand . I am a tough one but when i get sick the world does indeed stop spinning for a brief moment. (okay maybe not...but in my head it does)

Anyway, during some of my moments of relief, i picked my Bible up. I prayed a brief prayer that the Lord would lead me to a scripture and ease my soul. I open my Bible. turn a couple of pages, and start reading. 

Guess what passage i was at?? Matthew 10:25-33...

This time my focus was on the verse right
 before the one about the sparrow.


Matthew 10:28

I need not fear sickness or strife. Nor the obstacles that are thrown in my path as i run the race of life. My life has an eternal seal upon it. Why fear someone or something that can rob my body when i have the promise that my soul will live eternal and my body restored and made new?

I know this is a lot of rambling but this week in itself has been a challenging week for me. I have realized the importance of testimony and standing firm in my faith. I have seen the dangers in compromise and "straddling the fence" as they would say. And on the one day where emotionally and spiritually I was beat, my body started failing me as well. I say all this because i am a sinful human being. I am human and i worry and i stress and i care too much and sometime i care too little. I fail others and i fail myself. I hurt when others fail me. I am human. However, thanks to the word of God, i find security in the moments where everything is going wrong. I find hope in the fact that my God who care for the sparrows, as small as they are, cares oh so much for me. So much that He laid down His life so that mine would one day be eternal. So much that i could live a life without fear of what is ahead of me. Without fear of the pain, physically and emotionally. Rather a hope and security that all things are in His hand.  I need to say this because i need to remind myself constantly. I need to live a life that shows i believe this and not just say it.

I want my words to reflect my life and vice versa. I want to be Free and Redeemed...