a PAIN in the BUTT...no REALLY

For the past 6 weeks i have been dealing with a pain in the butt. A nuisance so overwhelming i could scream...in fact i have a few times. I have also cried a little and expressed quiet a few frustrations...So you might be wondering what exactly it is that is bothering me and driving me crazy...well...literally it is a pain in my butt (too much info maybe) . To get this to technical medical point...

I have been having numerous problems with my SI Joint also known as the Sacroiliac Joint...never heard of it?? Neither had I but now if you check my recent computer history or Google search engine on my home computer, cell phone, work computer, and kindle you will find this word over and over. The pain is one of two...it's either dull and discomforting but manageable, not disrupting my daily flow of life...or it is sharp, stabbing, and debilitating bringing me to my knees when i apply any movement or pressure to my right leg. It is in one spot in my lower back/butt area and let me tell you...it's the true definition of "a pain in the butt".

You might be wondering why I am sharing this with the world ( or the 2-3 people that will actually take time to read this) and to be honest...I'm sharing for my own personal record. When i start to thinking, a lot of times i forget to write or journal about it and i eventually forget all about it. I am trying to be more diligent in keeping track of the different thoughts, burdens, and passions that cross my mind. And right now, over the past 6 weeks, i have been trying to rack my brain on what unfathomable epiphany could come from this pain i am experiencing...To be honest...i have not quiet figured it out. The world would say it is life...live and get over it... the Bible says "All things work together for the good of those who love Him" and i am one of those who love Him, therefore i have to believe there is a rhyme and reason for this ailment. That doesn't mean i will ever understand it but it means that i can pray and seek too...

So in saying that a couple of things came to my mind tonight as i was working out...(remember my physical workouts are the expression of much deeper spiritual workouts)... the first thing was the re-occurrence of sin in our lives and overcoming that or succumbing to that. The pain I experience has not always been there. For the past 6 weeks it has been very prevalent but before that, it had been months upon months since i had felt it or known its existence and before that a year probably. It made me think about sin in my life. We all have our struggles...some seasons those struggles are basically invisible...i mean we know they are there but they are so faint we can't see them or feel the pull they have in our lives...then there are others times. Times where the struggle of our sins are so great that they seem to be debilitating to our life. They come at us like sharp unpredictable pains. We try everything but we can not seem to fend them off. Nothing helps...everywhere we turn we are surrounded by the temptation. It keeps up from being who we are outside of that sin. It keeps us from doing things we are called to do by a much Higher Power. It distracts us from what we should be doing and reminds us of all our limitations and failures.

HOWEVER...there is much peace in knowing that...

 "¹³ No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it."- 
 1 Corinthians 10:13

AND...we can't ignore and forget...

  "But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me."-  
2 Corinthians 12:9



I don't know that this is the Lord's rhyme or reason in my literal pain in the butt...however i do find comfort in the promises of His Word...and right now...this pain is a weakness for me. It's attempting to keep me from being active, healthy, and happy. It distracts me from the needs of others and puts my focus upon myself. I can't say i have mastered this part yet, but i am truly trying to turn my weakness into His strength. I am trying to allow my pain to bring me to the feet of Jesus. To call upon Him...to thank him for His Grace and Provisions. To be reminded that my needs in comparison to the needs of others is minute and that in the moment i am overwhelmed by my problem i am reminded of the much greater ones that surround me and the people of this world and the ones i love....

So...that my friends...is my current PAIN in the BUTT...